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What is the most effective way of moving on?Is it through using another person just to forget about him?
Why is it so hard to forget someone who did nothing good but to break your heart and leave you worthless?
How ironic...They say smart women become idiots when it comes to love.well i think i just happened to validate that claim with my endless mussings...
I don't know..It's been a long while but i still can't get him off my mind.oh, stupid me!
My bestfriend told me to give myself another chance in love. But i can't seem to look at other men the way i've looked at him before...crazy huh?
I get easily depressed with just a single thought of him but i can't help myself from thinking about him because it is him my heart aches for.
I get by the lonely nights of my life through reminiscing the memories we had and thinking about the moments that we shared together.
It's been really aweful and i've been really dumb! I even cry out of self-pity most of the time. I know it's not doing me any good and it does not at any point lessen the pain inside me but it does keep me from losing it completely!
I don't know if it is love, obsession or self-mortification...i can't give the perfect word.
I know i had to move on but to be able to do that and i have to let go and i sure damn know that...But i still haven't done so.
In a year that we have not seen each other, the pain is still the same, the intensity of things have increased and the feeling?my feelings?oh, i don't know...
I can't have him back and i wouldn't do so because of complicated reasons and i don't have a choice. It's either i choose the easiest way to escape and that is to use another person to forget him or i stay this way forever---angry, pathetic, alone, depressed and stupid.